Tag: journal
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An open letter to loved ones regarding my illness
This is going to be rather candid. Content warning: mention of suicide mid-letter. I don’t mean to scare anyone, but it’s important I share this. As you may know, I’ve been living with fibromyalgia and myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS) for the last four years or so. ME/CFS often starts after an infection. Fibromyalgia too…
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How I Celebrated Easter This Year
In which I do some liberation theology and critique American Christianity
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One Way to Fear Others Less
Traveling as a gender-nonconforming person is disquieting. But, and this may sound hokey, one thing that legitimately helps me fear strangers less is remembering that everyone is beloved. When I imagine someone deeply loves this stranger before me (who triggers something in me), so long as I know I’m deeply loved too, I relax a…
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My 2024 Recording Highlights
2024 was a slow year for me in terms of output. Dealing with fibromyalgia/long COVID greatly limited my ability not just to record, but perform music at all. All this has caused me to reflect on the gift of music and life in general. Recording is documenting life after all, and documentation is great for…
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Random MIDI Mutes and Semi-Generative Drums
I’ve been thinking a lot about the importance of silence in music, and I dreamed up this technique, using a sequencer to more-or-less randomly mute a signal. The idea was to program a beat but then have the sequence be periodically interrupted by silence. I was partly inspired by this tai hirose track. Now you…